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[Feb. 9th, 2010|08:41 pm] |
I really miss wearing school uniform!
Feel like a school dropout every morning when I take train to work
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[Jan. 30th, 2010|11:42 am] |
My mind feels blank whenever I open up this page. Its like...I feel like updating about my life but yet, there seems to be nothing significant enough for me to blog. Or rather, I just dont know where and how to start.
And it just suddenly dawned on me that I havent been doing a "whats-going-on-in-my-life" post for a real long time already.
To be honest, it still feels kind of surreal that A levels have ended. Yes, I know im slow. But somehow, although I cant really remember how exactly it feels like, im kind of missing those "mugging days". Ironic much? Im actually missing something that I cant really remember.
A trip back to Sn huahui got me thinking. Why were we back? For the people there? Or for ourselves? Huahui spirit? Or trying to hold on to i-dont-exactly-know-whats-the-something?
Shall not dwell on how things change again.
I realised many "hey, lets meet up!" have not been fulfilled. Busy? Excuses?
But anyway, am glad that I still manage to keep in contact with some real old friends. Its really amazing how admist the changes, we are still able to find the familar feeling. And im really thankful for that.
Work has been fine I guess. Although it usually takes me some time to warm up to new people, I think im doing well and im very happy to say that most of the people at work are nice and friendly. And I guess thats really important.
Well, pardon my disorganised post (if that happens to be any readers left) I'll try to keep my lj alive because I realised I really enjoy reading my old posts. Good reminders I would say, especially when humans just have so limited memory space in their brains. |
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[Jan. 7th, 2010|12:42 pm] |
Wtf. I bloody WANT that job!!!! Cant they just like at least call me down for an interview?!?! Do i look that f-ing bad that they dont want to employ me?~
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[Jan. 1st, 2010|02:36 pm] |
终于，结束了。
上半年，虽然很忙但很充实。
能为自己喜欢的事情努力总是最幸福的。
很多事情，很多人，很多感触，很多收获。
当所有那时的心情被我渐渐遗忘时，我想我还是不会忘记灯光暗下的那刻，
还有掌声环绕在耳边的那种激动。
下半年，被拉回了现实。
日复一日，唯有变得盲目。
支撑着我前进的只有两年前的失败。
真的不想，重蹈覆辙。
真的，尽力了。
即使最终仍到不了目的地，应该也能静下心来接受。
在一番歇斯底里之后。
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有些事情，竟然莫名地习惯了。
不再动心，也不再有心动的冲动。
这样，算是好事吗？
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曾说过变化是我对2008年最大的感触，但没想到2009年还是充满了变化。
或许很细微，但，变化终究是变化。
2010，更多变化的一年。
坦白说，恐惧是有的。
但矛盾的是，期待也是有的。
我想，我应该已经能比较坦然地面对变化吧。
毕竟，我想，我应该也变了。
至少在某种程度上。
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一年前的这天所许下的所谓的愿望并没有实现，
所以，在这里还是要许下相同的一个愿望。
当然，内容也还是保密的。
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你知道什么？
对啊，关于我，你到底知道什么？
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2010年，重新认识，了解，关于我的一切。
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[Dec. 17th, 2009|02:11 pm] |
oh mans i have to blog about this.
On this day of your life, Xuezhen, we believe God wants you to know ... that change is the very nature of life, - welcome it. |  | No glass ever became sand again; No bread ever became wheat; No ripened fruit ever became a flower. Welcome change, and choose what kind of glass you create, what kind of bread you bake, what kind of fruit you harvest. |
How true! |
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[Dec. 17th, 2009|11:58 am] |
Really hope the next 3 days will be great!!!
AHHHH.
*fingers crossed* |
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[Dec. 11th, 2009|02:59 pm] |
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You dont have to understand. |
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[Nov. 26th, 2009|08:33 pm] |
突然，缝变成了沟。
是因为水吗？
我努力跨过沟，甚至尝试用泥土把沟填满。
但，沟终究是沟。
即使是填满了泥土的沟，
也还是沟。
有没有那么一种力量，能暂停水的流动？ |
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[Nov. 24th, 2009|03:40 pm] |
Come on Xuezhen, this will be the last time you need to touch your h3 stuff! So why dont you go and study now!!!!
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[Nov. 15th, 2009|10:25 pm] |
This is just to show that im still..well, alive.
Surprisingly, I had been able to keep my cool before and during each paper. I guess thats really important, isnt it? Ha. So I hope my results will be able to reflect my cool performance? haha.
Something Mr Derek Lee said during lecture yesterday really struck me.
You guys have the knowledge, just not the strategies.
Well, I guess exams really arent about how much you know, but rather, how you are able to put forward what you know. Afterall, how much knowledge are you able to showcase during that 3 short hours? Two years of work and the only chance you get to prove yourself will be 3 hours of paper. Isnt it kinda unfair and cruel?
Anyway, I guess I will just continue to take each paper with a calm heart and just forget about the results. Like what Esti said, " Doing well for exams isnt the only thing to life. And, theres other routes in life other than getting into a university. "
How true. Sometimes you just dont know how things will turn out to be until you get there.
船到桥头自然直。
I will, learn to enjoy the remaining papers.
( I mean, at least its human geog and econs! Like,human geog is one of my favourite papers! (: )
Think positive. |
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[Nov. 8th, 2009|03:28 pm] |
I dont know what im doing here now.
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[Nov. 7th, 2009|10:09 pm] |
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I know I need to stay calm in order to do well. So, now its time to get rid of all the nagging feelings within.
Hang on, hang on please.
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[Nov. 1st, 2009|03:55 pm] |
Tomorrow.
I know I can do it.
Yes, I can (: |
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[Oct. 18th, 2009|08:26 pm] |
I do remember that im supposed to blog about graduation, so here I am!
I know im going to sound cheesy if I say this, but yes, the 2 years have passed fast. Real fast. Frankly speaking, coming to nyjc wasnt initially in my plans. I had never thought I would end up here but somehow, because of my results (and maybe, fate), I ended up here. And now, after 2 years, I guess I can safely say that I dont regret it, at all.
It hadnt been an easy journey. To be honest, I found it difficult to feel truly proud of the school at first. I guess there was just a part of me who still wished that I could have gone to, well, other places. Looking back, I feel that I was totally being silly. Yes, academic wise, we may be pretty far from the top, but education certainly isnt just about studies, right?
The video montage by the teachers was good. I was really touched, as in all their efforts and well wishes are so evident. You can really sense that they are really wishing us all the best. It was so sincere, and memorable. Honestly, im really thankful for all the teachers! Especially those who have taught me. Its very comforting to know that they are, and will, always be there for us (:
Many people have been complaining about how tough jc life is. But honestly, I do not think so. Yes, the syallabus is certainly far more demanding but that apart, I think the rest of jc life has been amazing. And who says that its hard to find true friends in jc! From cca to class, I have made lots of wonderful friends and im really thankful for them(:
But now, the journey hasnt ended. I look forward to the next time we'll all be gathered in the hall, nervously awaiting for the results of our hardwork. And im sure, that will be the most perfect full stop to this two year long journey. Meanwhile, hang on friends! We'll all make it there, im very sure (:
According to Mr Kwek's theory, im ten more steps away from where I want to be. Ten steps may seem to be a lot, but I know I can do it. Yes, I will. |
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[Oct. 16th, 2009|08:22 pm] |
I know I had things to say, but somehow im pretty lost for words now.
Hmm Hmm
Will be back |
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